I couldn’t see anything, where am I?
Is this a dream,
I thought. Why would I ask, of course this is a dream. I am not in my room and
I am still wearing my pajamas. This place I am into, it’s not like I am home;
not Kyoshiro’s nor my parent’s or George’s in Chiba.
I
am in someone’s house.
The
house is big and the architect is a bit old but the place still cleans. Like
someone is still living here. I went around to see of who is living here,
finally I saw someone. The guy in black tux, with pair of white gloves is
carrying a tray of tea and black berry pie. I am familiar with that guy.
No
way, it’s Rob.
He
looks so young and handsome, so he was a butler from a rich family. He serves
the tray on a very nice garden with three people around. These people sitting
on a chair, chatting with each other, they are all beautiful. They have white
complexion and beautiful aqua blue eyes.
Their
child sitting between them, eating a blue berry pie, he looks familiar. With
that smile, black hair color and wearing black shorts and shirt that could be
Kyoshiro.
Is
this Kyoshiro’s memory? But why am I dreaming about this, I am not supposed to
go on someone’s memory. But somehow, these two adults sitting beside him are
his parents.
He
really looks happy being with them. Rob was standing there but the mother wants
him to join them. I think this is the time that Rob was a vampire.
A
human who fell in love with a vampire mother, turn into a vampire not just for
the sake of being with her but the promise for each other, which is protecting
the family at times of trouble. Humans think that vampires use them as toys but
for Kyoshiro’s family, they all think of Rob as part of their family.
They
accepted him for who he is and he accepted them for what they did.
I woke up in this kind of dream or
Kyoshiro’s memory, I don’t know which is it but I dream about Kyoshiro’s
childhood times. It was the best moments of his life living with his family.
When
I heard that his parents died, I feel the same pain as he is. Living his only
family butler Rob, it must be hard for him without his parents. Like it is hard
for me without them too, my only mother and my father whom I have seen him in
my dreams died on my young age.
The
same thing as I have; loneliness, pain, heartbroken, sadness, but then it must
have been fate that we coincidentally meet each other. Even I heard his voice
in my dream; things happen after that.
I
get out of bed and this time Kyoshiro is not on my room. Well, at least I
wouldn’t shout at him on this early Saturday morning.
“Oh
yeah, today is Saturday…which means this coming night we will have our special
day today” I said.
I
almost forgot about it, thank goodness I remembered. Yesterday he told me that
I had to go working and on two minutes after working, I will prepare.
Prepare for
what,
I thought.
It
wouldn’t be much surprising if he will tell me, I guess he knows what he is
doing. But I am a bit nervous even now.
Right
now, I should get ready for work; today Sally will be working on a café. I am
excited to see her and we get to spend time with each other.
After I took a bath and change to my
uniform, I went down and leave for work. Meanwhile, I saw Rob working on the
flower bed. I bid him goodbye directly and left without hearing his words “be
careful.” And again, I didn’t say goodbye to Kyoshiro. Maybe he is pretending
to sleep long so after I left he will prepare something for me.
I
hope that’s possible.
When
I check in for attendance in the café, I notice Sally as she serves the food to
the costumers. So she is assigned to
serve the costumers, I thought. Well, she is perfect to be a waitress; she
has a good looks, perfect body, and good attitude. Mrs Lovely must have been
happy to see Sally as a good worker, though she only works just now.
And
she notices me, “Yuuko.”
“Hey
Sally, how are things going?” I asked.
“It
was okay, I feel so excited working here…not to mention the people here is
nice” she says.
“I
am glad to hear that…I better get change now”
When
I left her to work, I went to the changing room and saw Mrs Misaki, she works
as a waitress also.
“Hello
Yuuko, you’re working today; I thought you will have a date” she says.
“Huh,
h-how did you know about that?”
I never told anyone about my date with Kyoshiro, I only told one person and that’s only Sally. She couldn’t have told them.
I never told anyone about my date with Kyoshiro, I only told one person and that’s only Sally. She couldn’t have told them.
“So
who is this Kyoshiro, Yuuko” Mrs Misaki asked.
“Uhm…I
think you’ve seen him being a costumer, Mrs Misaki”
“I
see”
Though
she knew that I have date but she doesn’t know who is exactly Kyoshiro is.
The
manager knows who Kyoshiro is; she talks to him once before, when I got crazy
on something that time.
I
wonder if she told everyone about Kyoshiro. I don’t want to brag or anyone
spoil it; I don’t want anyone to know that I am dating an immortal being.
I
began working now, Sally is already get use on her job that fast, the other
employees were happy, the manager is busy with her job and I am happy on this
day.
As
the door went open, that means another costumer came in.
And
of course, as usual, Kyoshiro came by again. And as usual, be normal and
pretend I don’t know him; because if I do, the employees may know him.
“Welcome
sir, what would you like for today?”
“A
cup of coffee please”
“Okay
then that would be ¥30”
“Thank
you”
When
I serve him the coffee he left and sit on a chair; he is a bit awkward today,
he acts…differently?
Like
he is pretending to ignore me; well, I am okay with it but he could just say hi
to me.
Maybe
he doesn’t want to. Well, at least I can do my job properly and finish it fast.
He
is just sitting there drinking his coffee; he didn’t even look at me working.
Is he okay?
When
another came in, I concentrate on my work and forget what he is doing. In the
meantime, a boy wearing a blue jacket with black t-shirt on and a black jean;
he looks familiar. I know where I met him but I forgot.
That’s
right, I remember now he was my friend in Chiba. But then he left to Kyoto for
family reasons. I remember his name…Kaoru Tokoyama
“Kaoru,
is that you?” I say.
“Huh,
no way; Yuuko…Yuuko Takahama”
He
still remembers me; I knew that’s Kaoru. He stares at me with a surprise look,
maybe because we haven’t seen each other for so many years. We’ve known each
since I move in from Chiba; I was on a park playing alone. And he saw me
crying; I cried because I lost my mother and I beg God to give back my mother
but it was never granted.
Then
the boy who wears blue shirt and shorts is Kaoru Tokoyama.
“I
haven’t seen you since you left for Kyoto” I say.
“Me
too…I didn’t know you work here; when did you move here?” he asked.
“Last
month…so why are you here in Tokyo, I thought you will be in Kyoto from now on”
“I
already live with my grandfather now; my parents are having a job overseas”
That’s
right I remember bow, his parents are working on a business outside Japan just
like George.
By
looking at Kyoshiro he seems angry or something; I wonder what make him upset
this time.
When
I had my break I had a chance to talk to Kaoru; I also introduce him to
Kyoshiro. Somehow, he doesn’t feel like he wants to introduce himself to Kaoru.
“When
did you move here, Kaoru” I asked.
“Three
days ago…I move here to train with my grandfather”
“So
what does your grandfather train you?”
“He
train me to hunt”
“Hunt,
like what?”
“Oh
something not ordinary; I can’t really tell you”
I
wonder what he means by “not ordinary.” Does he mean by not human.
“Is
he your boyfriend?” Kaoru asked.
“Oh…uhm…yeah,
I guess”
“I’m
glad I could see you again Yuuko, it’s been so many years”
“Yeah”
“I
have to go home now” Kyoshiro says.
He
stood up directly and left the café. He seems so angry but why, did something
happen today. I wonder if we could still continue our date tonight.
“What’s
wrong with him?” Kaoru asked.
“I
don’t know”
After
we chatted, I go back to my station and think of Kyoshiro. It makes me want to
think of what’s going on with him.
Did
I do something wrong?
What
did I do to make him angry?
On
the end of my job today, Sally went home already and I was alone feeling
depressed. I kept on thinking Kyoshiro; maybe I can ask him so we can talk about
it. I directly ran for home but someone called me; I knew its Kaoru.
“Do
you have some free time? Actually I want to talk to you some more”
“I
am okay with it but I have plans; I’m having a date with Kyoshiro tonight”
“Oh,
I see…well, will it be okay tomorrow”
“Sure”
To
be honest, I want to talk to Kaoru more because I haven’t talk to him for so
long but the thing is I don’t want to break my promise to Kyoshiro. Since he started,
the plan and I promise to go.
I
ran as fast as I could. When I reach home, I saw Rob in the front door carrying
a white dress.
“Welcome
Yuuko, c’mon it’s time for you to get change” he says.
I
look around if Kyoshiro is here.
“Don’t
worry; young master is outside waiting for you; now you only have two minutes
left”
I
went to my room and get myself change. As I look to myself on the mirror, it
was the most beautiful dress I have ever seen. I don’t know if it fits me
perfectly. I look outside and I can see its getting dark, so I must hurry.
When
someone knocks on the door, it was Rob who came in. He was surprised to see me
wearing on a white dress.
“Let’s
go, Yuuko”
“Okay”
We
went downstairs together; my heart starts to beat a little. I was nervous a
little at the same time I was happy and excited. It makes me want to think of
what is so special for Kyoshiro today.
I
guess I have to ask Kyoshiro myself.
We
went out on this beautiful garden; it was so beautiful. The moon was glowing
and the roses were beautifully bloomed on night. I could see a small table with
two chairs only, a candle on the middle and a rose on a glass.
I
never imagine that this would ever to happen. I feel like I want to cry.
Rob
left me and I was alone. I thought Kyoshiro would be here but he is nowhere to
be found.
But
then he was at my back calling me. I turn around and I could see him wearing a
black polo and pants. It doesn’t matter what he wears as long I could see him
coming.
I
want to say something but my heart is pounding. And it starts to pound so fast.
“You
look beautiful on that dress” Kyoshiro says.
“T-thank
you I thought you will be here waiting for me”
“I
was but I want to surprise you to see this place first”
It
was surprising to see but I feel more surprise to see Kyoshiro.
On
that night, both of us seated down on a chair. It was a bit quite, I don’t know
what I am going to say to him. So I look around the garden and it feels like I
have seen this garden before.
That’s
right it was on my dream. The garden just look like the one I saw with Kyoshiro
and his parents. I want to tell him about my dream though but I don’t want to
feel sad if I talk about his parents.
“How
was your job?” Kyoshiro asked.
“It
was okay, Sally was happy of her job”
“And
that guy”
“You
mean Kaoru, he was okay…he was my friend when I move to Chiba; haven’t seen him
for a long time, I am glad I could see him again”
“Okay,
I understand”
What
the…he was the one asking about Kaoru; better not to talk about someone else
when you have a date. It will feel uncomfortable or distracted.
“Kyoshiro,
why do you say that our date is also your special day?” I asked.
“Today
is also my birthday”
“Huh…it’s
your birthday today”
“Yup,
I am turning 14 this year”
I
didn’t know that; so what he means for “special day” is the day of his
birthday. But why he makes it as our date.
“You
could have told me, I should have brought you something for you”
“I
don’t need it; all I ever need for my birthday is you…” he says “…my wish for
my birthday is for you to stay by my side”
Is
that what he ever wants? For me to stay by his side, I wonder if I can keep his
promise. I don’t want to be alone anymore; I don’t want to feel sad through
loneliness.
“Okay”
He
smiled at me like he knew that I will keep that promise but it wonders me if I
want to stay with Kyoshiro I have to transform to a vampire like him. Can I
ever ask him?
There
are other things that I need to think about. Kyoshiro and I love each other and
I promise that I need to stay with him but if I decide to transform to a
vampire I will suffer myself for blood.
“Yuuko,
what’s wrong?” Kyoshiro asked.
“N-nothing”
“Okay,
to make the mood look good…let’s have a nice music on a violin” Rob says.
Somehow,
I got the feeling that Rob heard our conversation all along. Of course,
Kyoshiro knew but he let it go for today. He doesn’t want to ruin our date.
“Shall
we dance?” Kyoshiro says.
“Sure”
He
hold my hand and do the dance position. The song that played by Rob is ballad.
When he played the piece, we followed the beat of the song. We could feel
romantic around us. I feel happy but the question around my head about
transformation couldn’t get out.
“Yuuko,
if there is something you want to talk about tell me”
“Kyoshiro…”
I couldn’t say it but I have to tell him and he needs to know “… if you want me
to stay by your side, I have one condition”
“What
is it?”
“If
you want me to stay with you…you have to transform me”
“What”
He
gave me a look of confusion. I knew he will give me that look; Rob could have
heard it but he still continues to play the violin.
“What
are you talking about Yuuko?”
“I
knew you understand what I am saying…you have to change me so I can keep that
promise”
“But
Yuuko, if I change you…you know the consequence of being a vampire”
“I
am ready for that consequence…”
I
always been and I always have but the fact of me being a vampire would keep myself
of being lonely.
After
the song played by Rob he played another one.
“I
knew you will say that…but I never want that to happen” Kyoshiro says.
“But
Kyoshiro…”
He
kissed me so I can’t speak anymore. But why…why he wouldn’t change me, I
thought he want me to stay with him.
“Let’s
not talk about this on our first date okay; the time is not yet set for us. For
there is still time left to prepare”
Where
did he get this kind of words? But I understand what he meant; there is still
lot of time before I can end my life, but I want it to stop. Pause everything
and start the time backwards; I don’t think that can ever happen. But if he
transforms me, my life will stop, and the time will still continue without me.
“Well,
I wouldn’t prepare if I have to…” I say “…and thank you for this wonderful
date; also happy birthday, Kyoshiro”
“Thank
you”
We
smiled at each other. And continue dancing. Maybe I shouldn’t think about me
being a vampire. It would make George, Sally, Rob and Kyoshiro worry if I have
to transform.
I
don’t think I am prepared.
“By
the way Yuuko, the dress you are wearing is my mother’s”
“What”
“She
wore that one when she had her first date with my father”
I
was surprise that I got to wear his mother’s dress. Rob never told me about it,
unless I have to ask.
“It
was the wonderful thing I have ever seen, she was beautiful when she wore the
dress. I have seen it during my birthday”
“Yeah,
I could imagine her wearing this and she is definitely beautiful”
I
saw her but it was on my dream. She was so beautiful and she is very much kind.
“You
saw her in your dreams”
“How
did you…”
“I
was the one who put that in your dreams…” he says “…when you were asleep; I
cast a spell passing my childhood memories in your dreams”
“But
why…”
“I
want you understand something about my family, remember you ask what they look
like…I give you the answer”
Isn’t
it supposed his secret?
But
he did give me the answer of what they are look like. I don’t mind if he
doesn’t want to tell me. Since he shown to me, I feel like I know his secret
more.
“You
look so much like your father, Kyoshiro” I say.
“I
know”
He
really does look like his father. But his kindness came from his mother.
The
night was the most beautiful thing I ever had. I will never forget this, never.
“Yuuko,
I’m sorry I didn’t tell you this sooner but there is something I need to do
before we end our date”
I
wonder what he is talking about, all the sudden when he hug me tightly he
directly bite my neck and suck my blood. If he wants my blood he could have
told me sooner, maybe he thought I would reject him.
I
don’t mind if he wants to drink my blood, this is how we feel for each other. A
servant will always care for their master, no matter what relationship they
have, no matter what promise they made, it will always kept.
When
he already stops drinking, I feel dizzy. I know my body is starting to faint
because he drink too much of my blood. I couldn’t stand properly but Kyoshiro
hold me.
“I
am sorry I didn’t tell you this sooner, Yuuko…I want to tell you but…”
I
put my finger on his mouth so he will stop talking.
“It’s
okay, it’s not your fault; I understand how you want it so bad”
I
after I said that to him, I feel I am unconscious now. But I could still feel
in my body the coldness of Kyoshiro’s hands. The music stop playing, I guess
Rob has finished his performance.
The
night we had together for the first time was the unforgettable memory. I will
keep it. And no one can erase it.
…
This
dream I had today, I thought I would be dreaming of my parents or Kyoshiro’s
parents but this time nothing. I couldn’t see anything but I could hear a sound.
I could hear a voice saying to STOP.
That voice sounds familiar to me
It
sounds like someone is in danger, but where and when.
I
feel like every dream I have is something will happen in reality. Something
danger will come out, something horrible will came to me. I don’t know if I
ever want to tell this to Kyoshiro.
Does
he know about this?
Does
he know this will happen to me?
Ever
since I came here, my dreams were all the memories I couldn’t remember of; and
someone who is expected to see me. But it turns out that it was Kyoshiro in my
dream. And ever since I stay with Kyoshiro and get to know him more, my dream
where turn into nightmare.
I
could see things that I never wanted to see.
I
don’t know what is going on.
But
this is somehow related to Kyoshiro’s past lives.